Emotionally I’ve been struggling today with the heavy weight of uncertainty around work, relationships, money and my career.
Throughout the day I’ve been aware of my thoughts that have been weighing me down.
A frustration that I’ve yet to find work and the ongoing draining process in applying. Regret around leaving my last job that I was bored with, that now seems ideal.
Worry regarding the lack of communication in a new relationship. Concern around money and the possibility of needing to borrow and self-doubt around my ability to pursue my dreams.
When my mind gets all worked up with worry ( consumed with past thoughts or future predictions that aren’t actually helpful ) thankfully through practising mindfulness, I know that in order to feel better, I just need to pull myself back to the present moment.
I need to stop, breathe and just be.
Through being present, I was able to bring some much needed calm back to my mind and body.
I was able to create space, to allow the nurturing part of my spirit to give guidance, which informed me to grab a pen, notebook and just write.
As I wrote whatever came to mind, I began to notice a particular pattern in regards to my thoughts. Most of the things I was worrying or frustrated about was simply a thought that had an attachment to a particular outcome taking place.
When I realised that all I needed to do was let go of mental attachment, that’s when the emotional shift started to take place.
I gained clarity around the notion that whatever happened in the past, is in the past, which means it’s no good to me now. And whatever is about to happen in the future, I can’t predict, so there is no point in having an attachment to the outcome.
What I can do though is focus on the now, the present, the only thing that is ever real.
And when I take a moment to just be, breathe, let go of negative thoughts and tune into my body, I notice feelings of peace, trust, support, hope and love… giving me all that I need.